cycle of life

Saturday night(april 5), i had coffee with sarah, ruth and papa ed. i haven't seen them quite some time because everyone was so busy with work and family. i somewhat miss our high school days when we saw each other everyday. we had lunch together, copied assignments from each other, hung out and gossiped during class (hehe. those were the days). Now, it's all different. some have a family and child to take care of, others focus on their blooming careers. it's obvious that our priorities now are different. Even our conversations had gone profound; from talking about hotties to discussing financial concerns, from petty girlish issues to serious family matters, etc.

you can see the prominent physical, emotional, psychological and even spiritual growth of each of us. you can also see the burden in grown ups' eyes, fatigue from work and family. i miss our innocent, smiling eyes when we told of our shallow/unforgettable experiences when we were younger. at the same time, i am also glad that we are full grown ups now. because now, we have a different understanding of things, a much deeper understanding of why things are the way they are. they say, we have more wisdom because of age and experience. we act maturely and decide rationally now.


when i think about it, is it really a blessing to mature and become wiser with age? they say that the older you get, the more freedom you have...but is this true? is an adult more free compared to an innocent child?
*an adult decides based on rationale while a child decides based on impulse - who has more freedom? everyone will excuse a child but not an adult who lives under the dictates of a society.

*wisdom or innocence - which do you prefer? with wisdom, you are bound to your conscience and to the ripple effect of your actions to others. on the other hand, if you are an innocent child, you are excused in whatever you do.

i know that this is the cycle of life - born, mature, then die. many desire to gain knowledge and wisdom but for me, i still (somehow) desire the life of a child; innocent from all the misdoings of the society and freedom (in the sense of having freedom from guilt) in anything you do.